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Unexpectedly feeling like a real people
Jun. 8th, 2014 06:35 pmThe last few weeks have been ... perhaps not rough, but corrugated. Work, Hall, gaming, parties, commitments have just come one after the other with little space for a breather. The last several social events I haven't even felt like taking photos, and have not been able to hold up my end of any significant conversation. So it was with some surprise that I found myself having actual conversations at a small event earlier today.
Today I had set aside as a day for *me*, so I was at the brunch because I wanted to be and had no other commitments or dramas weighing on me :) I'd also managed a decent nights sleep beforehand. But Saturday was also unexpectedly relaxing.
I was at the hall from about 10am until 4pm solid, and a significant amount of that time I spent either showing people around or otherwise watching what they were doing. I also managed some cleanup and gardening. given my state I really expected this to be as much of a chore than a pleasure, but as it turned out it (especially the gardening) actually provided enough focus that various other issues moved "out of sight, out of mind" for a while. It was about 3pm that I really *realised* that I was feeling better.
Then another commitment for the evening fell through enabling me to take up an invitation to see a movie with friends which also boosted my mood beyond my expectations. I was still a wallhugger at the party that night, but I felt better.
The feeling has peaked, I'm already on the way down and facing the prospect of another busy week, with a party at mine to finish it. But it helps to remember that those moments can still be there.
Today I had set aside as a day for *me*, so I was at the brunch because I wanted to be and had no other commitments or dramas weighing on me :) I'd also managed a decent nights sleep beforehand. But Saturday was also unexpectedly relaxing.
I was at the hall from about 10am until 4pm solid, and a significant amount of that time I spent either showing people around or otherwise watching what they were doing. I also managed some cleanup and gardening. given my state I really expected this to be as much of a chore than a pleasure, but as it turned out it (especially the gardening) actually provided enough focus that various other issues moved "out of sight, out of mind" for a while. It was about 3pm that I really *realised* that I was feeling better.
Then another commitment for the evening fell through enabling me to take up an invitation to see a movie with friends which also boosted my mood beyond my expectations. I was still a wallhugger at the party that night, but I felt better.
The feeling has peaked, I'm already on the way down and facing the prospect of another busy week, with a party at mine to finish it. But it helps to remember that those moments can still be there.
