marsden_online: (Cat Yarn)
The life updates I've posted so far this year have all been pretty shit. As is often the case when I've had enough positive energy I've been too busy trying to get things done to take or make the time to update here about day-to-day stuff. Facebook really has claimed that space in my life; although even there it is mostly a stream of articles and links about what I have read today online that I consider important, and jottings from gaming sessions.

There are still many things I could be attending to instead of posting, but someone worth writing about has come into my life and her presence and support is helping me get back on track. Yes, I have fallen into a relationship with a lovely lady of about my own age, based in Wellington but that's not an insurmountable issue in this age of electronic long-distance communication and affordable plane travel. We have just spent the better part of a fortnight in the same city (a trip arranged pre-relationship around other circumstances) and I was surprised at the feeling of loss as she walked out to the plane home; I am very cautious about letting myself feel too deeply too fast for anyone but apparently she managed to sneak something past my guard ;)

Positive impacts on my life and ability to do stuff include
- talking on the phone in the evenings winding down my brain for sleep
- wake-up calls and encouragement to get out of bed in the morning
- the "companionship" segment in my life filled in enough that life rolls a little more like a wheel and a little less like a triangle
- various topics and triggers of angst not having anything to get a grip on any more
- an overall improved feeling of wellbeing

Some of these will also be due to the season and increased daylight hours; and of course I'm not miraculously un-depressed. My sleep quality is still pretty rubbishy and quantity required still high. Anxiety about my performance at work has actually jumped even as I have found more reason to be there and work better.

But. Enough mental cycles have freed up that I am looking towards and thinking about the future with an energy that I have not had for a long time.

Happy days.

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In other news
- my Monday gaming group has wrapped up for the moment; work and other commitments taking some of us away from the table.
- my Sunday game continues to progress although again real life means making some adjustments there.
- I've managed to slightly dent the reading pile.
- Friday just past was the 13th and I hosted another Gothic Vampire party (last year the opportunity was missed). There were fewer people than I had expected; but most seemed to be having a good time
- LBTC Gytha continues to be herself
- One of the Hall rabbits (domestics "released" into the grounds by someone at New Years) crossed the road and got itself picked up and taken to the vet by a neighbour; so we now know they are not microchipped and may be one step closer to rehoming them.
- We might just about be on top of the spring growth at the Hall this year; working bees have managed to be almost-monthly although it is still rare that anyone other than the Rovers and myself show up.
- I have had some issues with the number of requests for Hall time we've been getting from people who seem to think we're open 24/7 at the drop of an email.
- I've kind of given up on managing it myself and started paying someone to deal with some of the gardening and such.
marsden_online: (skull)
when everything goes just not quite right and you just start failing to cope.
Negativity dump )
marsden_online: (Blueknight)
Looking back it has been a year of ups and downs - but overall ups. Despite some pretty tough patches I'm in a much better place emotionally than I was this time last year.

Freeze frame )
marsden_online: (Ghostfighter)
It's been over two months since I posted anything about life in general which wasn't dumping angst. So here's a less-transient-than-facebook record of some events.

Hall )

kitty )

gaming )

dentist )

other stuff )
marsden_online: (BlueDragon)
If I have been a bit quiet on here recently it has been because life has not been letting up, over and above my tendency to overcommit. So here are few things from the past little while.
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cat )
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productive Saturday )
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111 excitement )
marsden_online: Obligatory pet cat (racky)
May you ever hunt rabbits among tussock and rolling hills.

He might have had another week or two in him, but despite hunger he hasn't been taking solid food and the weight has been dropping off. Yesterday I made the decision, and called the vet this morning.

There have been good days and bad days - yesterday was a bad day, ironically today was a good day as he got up, scoffed some solid food for the first time in a couple of weeks and took a wander outside shortly before we were due to leave. I think it's better that way.

He is buried behind the hedge, in his favourite spot to doze away the summer days / watch the world go by / wait for the human to get home.

photo )
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Thank you very much to [livejournal.com profile] littlel for chauffeuring :)

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There is a significant amount of Royal Canin Renal (kidney diet) catfood - biscuits and sachets - looking for a good home if anyone else has a cat eating that. Also 3 single serve tins of Woolworths/Select catfood (various fishy flavours) and half a 15L bag of kitty litter.

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I'm coping better at this moment than I thought I might be, but I got a lot out of my system yesterday leading up to the point of no return. OTOH I'm running out of planned actions. Gaming has unfortunately been cancelled this evening - I'm open to other distractions.
marsden_online: Obligatory pet cat (racky)
I took Racky in for an extra check-up today, because I've been worried about his eating (and not-grooming).

The good news is his mouth is fine. But he has lost a kg in the last 5 months. (He hasn't been doing anything much except sleeping and travelling to/from the food bowl/litter box.)

The growths on his legs are becoming larger & ulcerating. The vet lanced the softest one, which ejected a lot of mucous material and then started bleeding profusely, so there is now a bandage on that leg as well. But it may have taken some of the pressure off.

Added to routine:
- change dressing
- clean around claws
- remind cat to eat several times a day.
marsden_online: Obligatory pet cat (racky)
Racky in for his annual checkup this afternoon.

Weight down to 5.1 kg from 5.75 kg at the end of March

Has picked up a heart murmur. Possibly an entire conversation.

The vet who saw him today is going to talk to the vet who investigated his lump/kidneys before deciding whether to have him in tomorrow morning to try and take his blood pressure / prescribe medication that might keep him going a bit longer.

Other than that, still full of spirit and amazing for a 20 year old cat.
marsden_online: (Ghostfighter)
What I ought to do is line up a video to dub and then go and do the dishes or somesuch. Right after I make a pointless post :)

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An emotional afternoon yesterday didn't leave me in top for for gaming, and the session suffered. It was however a lesson in just how potent highish (11th) level casters can be against an army of mooks - who would have thought a large air elemental can hoover up and spit out 42 medium creatures a round? The opposing orc horde didn't get within 20' of the fortifications supported by the PCs, although some of that was due to me forgetting stuff. I also should have had a better idea of the visibility (or lack thereof) and used that - the fact it was night was sort of handwaved.

The hill giants soaked up a few fireballs, but the orc general being dropped to his death from 200' in the air pretty much ended things.

So D&D unstructured mass combats - it's not necessarily how many casters you have on your side (the orcs had a number of 5th level clerics), but who can cast the biggest spells soonest which makes the advantage. A more disciplined force might have pulled back and waited for the short-duration spells to expire before renewing the assault.

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Racky update - front lump is also a 'benign' tumour.
marsden_online: (Kea)
Apropos of everything, instead of making 3+ separate posts
day off, BumpTop )
cat )
neverwinter )
SOEs )
marsden_online: Obligatory pet cat (racky)
The vet called me back this afternoon.
- They were unable to make a useful analysis of the sample taken from his front leg - too much blood etc contamination from the sample taking procedure. Good news - retest is free.

- The lump on his back leg is definitely cancerous. Some unusual kind of cancer which forms in or off connective tissue - ligaments, tendons, possibly bone. They can't tell if it's particularly malignant and will need to xray him. I was more concerned by the comment that he didn't appear to notice the needle etc when they took that sample - a lack of sensation in his hindquarters would match up with the increasing difficulty I've noticed in him getting them to go where he wants them to.

- So he's booked in for another sample from the front lump and x-rays of the hind leg and as-much-of-his-spine-as-I-can-convince-them-to-take on Thursday morning.
marsden_online: Obligatory pet cat (racky)
Racky's kidney function has gone from 'fine' when he had his dental 9-odd months ago to 'decreased', based on the blood work before his planned operation this morning. The vet wasn't willing to anaesthetise him for fear of further damaging the kidneys, so he still has lumps (looking much bigger and uglier after shaving :( ), kidney-friendly food ($$) (lets see how long he keeps eating it) and a big bag of fluid + apparatus to introduced it under the skin a bit at a time over the next few weeks (apply needle to cat then keep him still for 2-3 minutes. Fun).

Vet did take some samples of the lumps via needle so we'll see what the results of those say in about a week.
marsden_online: Obligatory pet cat (racky)
Last week I noticed a hard tight lump on Racky's front leg. It was showing no sign of going away so this afternoon we went into the vet to get a professional opinion.

The vet didn't think it was an abscess and didn't want to poke it too hard but thought it needed to come off, although that's tricky in that area because there's not a lot of spare skin to sew back together over the wound. She also found another lump, softer, on his back leg (also tricky).

So Racky will be going back in for surgery on Thursday. They may decide to only take a needle sample of the back leg in the first instance, but the front lump will be removed. The vet will clean his teeth up a bit while he is under, so that will save me an expense at his annual checkup, but still looking in the realm of $500 by the time the lumps are tested.

And of course Wednesday will be a hungry cat night.

Weight: 5.75kg - still dropping slowly.

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I'm coming down with some sort of lurge myself and didn't sleep well last night at all.
marsden_online: (Rage)
Came to alertness to the sound of the cat throwing up on the duvet, to discover he'd just managed to stealth crap on the bed as well.

Having put cat out vigorously made my way to the kitchen for paper towels to discover more cat shit on the kitchen floor.

I did not need this sort of start to the day.
marsden_online: (Rage)
The cat just walked over my keyboard and managed to hotkey-lock-out the trackpad. Restarting didn't help - lcky I know enough about navigating windows without a mouse to find the settings and turn it back on.

Why is this happening @ 2 in the am? FaceBook status sez "Marsden is waking from dreams that most would consider nightmares. Sometimes being an emotionally disconnected individual has it's advantages."

Vet visit

Sep. 23rd, 2008 01:12 pm
marsden_online: Obligatory pet cat (racky)
Racky spent the morning at the vets, much to his disgust.

The diagnosis is a fall or possibly a minor stroke, given the sudden onset and recovering function.

We have anti-inflammatories (for the sore leg) and mineral supplements (for the arthritis), return visit in 2 weeks.
marsden_online: (Default)
Racky is using his leg a little more this morning - at least he can makeit one end of the house to the other without complaining although he's still not putting a lot of weight on it. So I'll put it down to a twist or sprain & hold off on the vet.

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Yesterday was mostly taken up by a trip out to the farm to housekeep my sister's laptop, which meant I didn't get over to the games day :( There was a small monetary windfall though, which sort of made up for it.

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I was planning on watching Hogfather tonight (courtesy of DVD from [livejournal.com profile] codym, but things just keep getting added to the errands list so I think I'll have to postphone it in favour of game prep / photos.
marsden_online: Obligatory pet cat (racky)
Racky has been having issues with his back legs for a while. This morning one of them was just not working.

I carried hhim to his foodbowl, which he attacked with gusto, and he seems to be recovering some use now. I'm hopeful he just slept on it. If he's still limping after I get back from the farm there is a vet appointment in the near future. And possibly a supply of plastic sheeting.

deflation

Sep. 9th, 2008 08:50 am
marsden_online: (Default)
Cheerfully headed for bed after watching Colour of Magic last night (and looking forward to part 2 next week).

Discovered the cat had vomited on the duvet at some point during the day. Kind of ruined my mood.
marsden_online: Obligatory pet cat (racky)
Vet just called - Racky has survived his dental (including removal of yet more of his few remaining teeth) and she has also determined that he has broken his jaw at some in-determinant point in the past.

... this does mean he got to keep some other teeth that she was considering taking out but thinks are probably OK, because she didn't want to aggravate the 'fibrous join'.

Update on what that all cost later.
~$330. At least he was sedated for his extraction.

Return visit in 10 days, antibiotics in the meantime.

Sore mouth in no way stopped him from tucking into the food bowl as soon as I put something in it.

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