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I've been having trouble sleeping nights recently - I don't seem to be the only one so it's probably a seasonal thing. My "wake from a vivid bad dream drenched in sweat" count is also up.
Last night featured a particularly bad one. I'm not going to go into details just say hashtags naked, alone, helpless, angry, lashing out, losing it, failing to summon help, against the odds, betrayal.
There were going to be consequences to my actions, I was happy to accept them if only help would come. Which it eventually did but not of my doing.
There was another unpleasant dream later on (it took me about 2 hours and a snack to get back to sleep after the first one) which was a more traditional "fighting this thing but able to deal with it and ultimately going to win despite the unpleasantness" scenario.
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Adding this to a few other things
- serious trouble getting out of bed in the morning (even when I've slept well)
- then serious desire for naps in the afternoon / evening
- serious lack of motivation/energy to start things (once started I'm generally good for a couple of hours)
- work hours frustratingly down as a result
- hall is currently a more negative than positive influence in my life
suggests that despite my generally upbeat mood and recent bursts of creativity and writing there may actually be something pretty heavy weighing me down behind the scenes :(
Last night featured a particularly bad one. I'm not going to go into details just say hashtags naked, alone, helpless, angry, lashing out, losing it, failing to summon help, against the odds, betrayal.
There were going to be consequences to my actions, I was happy to accept them if only help would come. Which it eventually did but not of my doing.
There was another unpleasant dream later on (it took me about 2 hours and a snack to get back to sleep after the first one) which was a more traditional "fighting this thing but able to deal with it and ultimately going to win despite the unpleasantness" scenario.
~~~
Adding this to a few other things
- serious trouble getting out of bed in the morning (even when I've slept well)
- then serious desire for naps in the afternoon / evening
- serious lack of motivation/energy to start things (once started I'm generally good for a couple of hours)
- work hours frustratingly down as a result
- hall is currently a more negative than positive influence in my life
suggests that despite my generally upbeat mood and recent bursts of creativity and writing there may actually be something pretty heavy weighing me down behind the scenes :(
