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Everything I want to do right now seems like too much hard work. Or maybe there is no-thing I want to do right now just a list of chores / things I *ought* to do and an aching pit inside.
So I'm working through a list of things that need to be done because what else am I going to do?
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Most of this week followed the pattern of "get through enough hours at work then accomplish one thing at home for the day". I can't clearly remember what/when those things were now. None of theme were very big things. Filling the green bin happened one evening - didn't take very long. Getting the photos from last weekend onto my computer may be one thing - I didn't manage to actually put together the gallery yet.
Around that I played through a very long game of FreeCiv until I'd eliminated a couple of the other civs and could easily have rolled over the remaining ones. I think that has sated my Civ craving for a while and hopefully reset my brain on some level.
By the end of yesterday I was completely exhausted and had to push myself to clean the place up for drinkies that was being hosted here. I as without the spoons to actually participate falling into be shortly after 8, emerging briefly around 11. Sleep eventually came, ironically after the drinkies wound up - but was very broken from neighbour-cat repeatedly coming in through the window I had left open for cat-guest and being met with hissing and spitting. I also had multiple bad dreams involving being late for work - importantly late like for meetings with clients - which ties in with it getting harder and harder to get to work "on time" as the week progressed. (As I don't have a formal start time this means getting to work later and later and repeatedly missing the time I've chosen to aim for.)
So I'm working through a list of things that need to be done because what else am I going to do?
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Most of this week followed the pattern of "get through enough hours at work then accomplish one thing at home for the day". I can't clearly remember what/when those things were now. None of theme were very big things. Filling the green bin happened one evening - didn't take very long. Getting the photos from last weekend onto my computer may be one thing - I didn't manage to actually put together the gallery yet.
Around that I played through a very long game of FreeCiv until I'd eliminated a couple of the other civs and could easily have rolled over the remaining ones. I think that has sated my Civ craving for a while and hopefully reset my brain on some level.
By the end of yesterday I was completely exhausted and had to push myself to clean the place up for drinkies that was being hosted here. I as without the spoons to actually participate falling into be shortly after 8, emerging briefly around 11. Sleep eventually came, ironically after the drinkies wound up - but was very broken from neighbour-cat repeatedly coming in through the window I had left open for cat-guest and being met with hissing and spitting. I also had multiple bad dreams involving being late for work - importantly late like for meetings with clients - which ties in with it getting harder and harder to get to work "on time" as the week progressed. (As I don't have a formal start time this means getting to work later and later and repeatedly missing the time I've chosen to aim for.)
