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Another sign the drugs are working
Mar. 17th, 2013 09:26 pmThere was a party here last night. It was a pretty good party, not greatly attended but everyone seemed to be having a good time most of the night (for "other people" definitions of everyone).
Although my interactions were in the majority positive (good conversations, catching up with people I hadn't seen in a while, hugs, even a little bit of a neck/shoulder rub at one point) I had over-drawn on spoons* just getting through the day/ready and then also spent much of the evening at a loose end, basically sitting in the office refreshing FB / waiting for Hall alarms that never came (that's a different story).
Previously this would have been accompanied by a plunge in mood but this time while I couldn't have been described as happy it would be fair just to describe me as "bored".
* borrowed heavily from next-weeks spoons and struggling to find enough to write this up even now but if I don't it will disappear
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Mood also not helped by the fact that I'm going through a lonely patch right now and there were at least a couple of highly visible hook-ups last night, along with a bit of other scar-prodding. The drugs haven't taken the edge off that at all.
Although my interactions were in the majority positive (good conversations, catching up with people I hadn't seen in a while, hugs, even a little bit of a neck/shoulder rub at one point) I had over-drawn on spoons* just getting through the day/ready and then also spent much of the evening at a loose end, basically sitting in the office refreshing FB / waiting for Hall alarms that never came (that's a different story).
Previously this would have been accompanied by a plunge in mood but this time while I couldn't have been described as happy it would be fair just to describe me as "bored".
* borrowed heavily from next-weeks spoons and struggling to find enough to write this up even now but if I don't it will disappear
~~~
Mood also not helped by the fact that I'm going through a lonely patch right now and there were at least a couple of highly visible hook-ups last night, along with a bit of other scar-prodding. The drugs haven't taken the edge off that at all.
