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First day back at work / Reset
Jan. 14th, 2013 09:17 pmFirst day back at work for the year. First day as an employee instead of a contractor for nearly 6* years. First time in a technically "senior" position.
- Not strictly formally "Senior", and the argument could be made that this is simply solidifying of an existing situation but it feels like a rather different dynamic actually working in the same office / collaborating directly rather than usually focussed on different projects.
* 2 weeks short
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Most of yesterday disappeared unplanned into a game of FreeCiv. On reflection that is usually where I turn when I need to give my brain a reset. Determinedly hung on and finished the game somewhere after midnight. I would have liked another week off (common sentiment) as it is only this past week that I have actually begun to relax and wind down (following the same pattern as 2011-12). I'm still low on energy and just the last couple of nights started having lack-of-control dreams again.
~~~
Nevertheless woke comfortably, made my way to the office in no hurry and had what seemed like a low-impact day. There was very little code involved - mostly it was administration and showing other people how to do stuff. Which I rather enjoy but may take up a deceptive amount of spoons. At between the 5 and 6 hour marks my brain was really starting to fade though -not unusual but I had d thought I might do better / be fresher. Called it a day.
~~~
There were a number of errands on the way home including a (false) Hall alarm when I was already nearly there to do a patrol. Maybe one of the pigeons we say yesterday flew in front of a sensor or something. Shortly after 6pm I gave in and went for what was to be a short nap on the basis that even if I stayed up late as a result I could make some use of the time. Instead I was woken ... admittedly at the time I had been planning ... by the computer deciding to wake up from the sleep state I'd put it in and re-start playing music fairly loudly and then drifted* for about another two hours. I am still very tired but had to get up and eat. so I'm actually going to be going to bed about the usual time, and desperately hoping for some restful sleep.
* much of this drifting seemed to involve pondering how when you have the ability to "have"/"take" something(one) (or make a mess trying) it is so incredibly important that you are able to put what you want second to what other parties want, and how much energy I spend on -not- doing certain things I want to.
~~~
Don't drink don't smoke - what do you do?
Don't drink don't smoke - what do you do?
Subtle innuendos follow
There must be something inside
- Not strictly formally "Senior", and the argument could be made that this is simply solidifying of an existing situation but it feels like a rather different dynamic actually working in the same office / collaborating directly rather than usually focussed on different projects.
* 2 weeks short
~~~
Most of yesterday disappeared unplanned into a game of FreeCiv. On reflection that is usually where I turn when I need to give my brain a reset. Determinedly hung on and finished the game somewhere after midnight. I would have liked another week off (common sentiment) as it is only this past week that I have actually begun to relax and wind down (following the same pattern as 2011-12). I'm still low on energy and just the last couple of nights started having lack-of-control dreams again.
~~~
Nevertheless woke comfortably, made my way to the office in no hurry and had what seemed like a low-impact day. There was very little code involved - mostly it was administration and showing other people how to do stuff. Which I rather enjoy but may take up a deceptive amount of spoons. At between the 5 and 6 hour marks my brain was really starting to fade though -not unusual but I had d thought I might do better / be fresher. Called it a day.
~~~
There were a number of errands on the way home including a (false) Hall alarm when I was already nearly there to do a patrol. Maybe one of the pigeons we say yesterday flew in front of a sensor or something. Shortly after 6pm I gave in and went for what was to be a short nap on the basis that even if I stayed up late as a result I could make some use of the time. Instead I was woken ... admittedly at the time I had been planning ... by the computer deciding to wake up from the sleep state I'd put it in and re-start playing music fairly loudly and then drifted* for about another two hours. I am still very tired but had to get up and eat. so I'm actually going to be going to bed about the usual time, and desperately hoping for some restful sleep.
* much of this drifting seemed to involve pondering how when you have the ability to "have"/"take" something(one) (or make a mess trying) it is so incredibly important that you are able to put what you want second to what other parties want, and how much energy I spend on -not- doing certain things I want to.
~~~
Don't drink don't smoke - what do you do?
Don't drink don't smoke - what do you do?
Subtle innuendos follow
There must be something inside
