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Rainy day blues
Oct. 22nd, 2012 11:10 amYesterday was beautiful and sunny. I was well aware of this as I stubbornly clung to my plan of knocking a work project off the to-do list since I'm going to be losing at least two half-days later in the week. I had made the decision in the past week and had woken up with my head in the right space - but once I got into it focus proved a struggle and what I'd expected to take up no more than half my day took all of it, including a nap to try and regain spoons.
Today I'm equally stubbornly not working (it is a public holiday after all) (despite which I seem to have read an awful lot of technical material from my RSS backlog this morning - not exactly staying out of the headspace) but the weather is wet as dull (as forecast) and I started the day on a low. I'm not really regretting my decision to break my long weekend - but I really could have used one. Saturday was taken out by nanocon (which will get its own post later) and helping my parents buy a birthday present for my nephew so it was in large part a good day, but not exactly rejuvenating.
This all isn't helped by the fact that I don't think I've slept properly for about a week - and not because of #AH alarms. But my amount of aware-dreaming time is way up, I usually find myself either too hot or too cold trying to get to sleep and I am waking with all the aches especially in my back and wrists. I'm not sure what of these is cause or effect.
I will next settle down with a book for a few hours, something for which I've been trying to marshal both opportunity and brain for the past few weeks? months? I've lost track.
What I'm trying to ignore is feeling overwhelmingly single/alone, which has been a feature of the past several weeks and especially on days like today.
Today I'm equally stubbornly not working (it is a public holiday after all) (despite which I seem to have read an awful lot of technical material from my RSS backlog this morning - not exactly staying out of the headspace) but the weather is wet as dull (as forecast) and I started the day on a low. I'm not really regretting my decision to break my long weekend - but I really could have used one. Saturday was taken out by nanocon (which will get its own post later) and helping my parents buy a birthday present for my nephew so it was in large part a good day, but not exactly rejuvenating.
This all isn't helped by the fact that I don't think I've slept properly for about a week - and not because of #AH alarms. But my amount of aware-dreaming time is way up, I usually find myself either too hot or too cold trying to get to sleep and I am waking with all the aches especially in my back and wrists. I'm not sure what of these is cause or effect.
I will next settle down with a book for a few hours, something for which I've been trying to marshal both opportunity and brain for the past few weeks? months? I've lost track.
What I'm trying to ignore is feeling overwhelmingly single/alone, which has been a feature of the past several weeks and especially on days like today.
