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It's a trap!
Oct. 9th, 2012 08:22 pmTwo and a half weeks into working from the company office and not-entirely-unexpectedly I'm starting to feel guilty about not (being able to) getting out of bed and in there by say 9am. But it's no worse than feeling guilty about not getting out of bed to start the days work at home.
Also as expected my hours are up - although it's becoming a struggle to focus, but I can't tell if that is due to working myself too hard or because of the lack of sleep over the weekend. Once I am in the office if I have nowhere else to be and there is work in my inbox the tendency is just to keep going. It does feel that I am working more and achieving less but looking at the list in my timesheet I'm pretty sure that is an illusion, probably due to a project which is taking > twice as long as projects in it's category usually do. It probably also has something to do with working much longer stretches without a mental break (aka social-media check).
Thursday will tell - I need to be elsewhere at midday so I only expect to be in the office in the morning. Leaving before lunchtime ... how will that go down this week now that I have actually spent a few "full" days there?
This is actually nothing to do with any explicit or implicit expectations laid on me by the others in the office (yet), it's purely my own brainmeats. I just need to remind myself that I am structuring my life such that work is only one part of it, and that it is important to me that there are other things it does not automatically take priority over, and that I do not believe that a 9-to-5 job or working more than a certain number of hours per week (or spending all my available spoons on work) are good for me.
I stated explicitly that I wanted to retain the advantages that no fixed schedule provides in terms of other commitments this allows me to take on, but I need to hold myself to that as well.
It would help if I had other places to be. Coming home actually holds little attraction ... it still feels like work in a number of ways and there is a sort of ennui that sets in when I sit back down at the computer ... so why come back here just for the sake of leaving work?
Also as expected my hours are up - although it's becoming a struggle to focus, but I can't tell if that is due to working myself too hard or because of the lack of sleep over the weekend. Once I am in the office if I have nowhere else to be and there is work in my inbox the tendency is just to keep going. It does feel that I am working more and achieving less but looking at the list in my timesheet I'm pretty sure that is an illusion, probably due to a project which is taking > twice as long as projects in it's category usually do. It probably also has something to do with working much longer stretches without a mental break (aka social-media check).
Thursday will tell - I need to be elsewhere at midday so I only expect to be in the office in the morning. Leaving before lunchtime ... how will that go down this week now that I have actually spent a few "full" days there?
This is actually nothing to do with any explicit or implicit expectations laid on me by the others in the office (yet), it's purely my own brainmeats. I just need to remind myself that I am structuring my life such that work is only one part of it, and that it is important to me that there are other things it does not automatically take priority over, and that I do not believe that a 9-to-5 job or working more than a certain number of hours per week (or spending all my available spoons on work) are good for me.
I stated explicitly that I wanted to retain the advantages that no fixed schedule provides in terms of other commitments this allows me to take on, but I need to hold myself to that as well.
It would help if I had other places to be. Coming home actually holds little attraction ... it still feels like work in a number of ways and there is a sort of ennui that sets in when I sit back down at the computer ... so why come back here just for the sake of leaving work?
