New Games experienced today at PaperHatCon

Machine Of Death - a co-operative game of imaginative assassination
MoD variant - much like Cards Against Humanity but you are a psychopath trying to get as many of your hostages killed as possible
Enter the Avenger - a slightly structured storytelling game.

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Also had a game of The Good, The Bad and The Munchkin to start.

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Tomorrow I will probably try and run an Ace of Spades starter.

Danger signs

I knew I was pushing it this week. Two physical days at the Hall last weekend followed by 6+ hour days at work most of the week (nearly made my self-imposed maximum of 30 hours) and usually several hours of something "productive" in the evening - by Thursday my focus was starting to get a bit shot, I was having trouble remembering small things like what I was planning to do next and getting the monkey off my back to get out of bed was feeling like a bit too much. Thursday night I could *feel* the resistance but kept going. Rallied slightly at work on Friday (after a very late start) but had to leave chores planned for the evening until Saturday morning.

This morning I had a very clear list of things that had to get done including some shopping during which I found ... *felt* might be a better word ... myself impulse-buying in a way I associate with being quite low in mood. Nothing big. On the Big front I've just thrown several hundred dollars at Hall maintenance - it could easily be argued that there are more beneficial things I could have done with that money for myself even just putting it against the mortgage.

This afternoon I did mostly just get to relax and play some games with people I like (marred a bit by lunch disagreeing with me) and hopefully tomorrow will be similar although starting earlier. It is likely to be less relaxing than today because there will be more people and higher-energy games.

And there are some things I really need to get done -this- week which although I can see the time for and know I will probably have the spoons for ... but I'm really not feeling it right now.

I felt really good about the rush of energy and enthusiasm at the beginning of the week and I did know it brought with it the likelihood of going past my limits. So I'm not surprised to be where I am right now. Just trying to figure out how to slow dawn and hoping to manage it better next time.