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marsden_online) wrote2014-03-07 07:20 pm
marsden_online) wrote2014-03-07 07:20 pm
Tuckered out
The last couple of weeks have taken a toll. Particularly the week before last (I think it was) I overdid things a bit and even last week each new little disappointment felt like a brick landing on an already heavy load. Getting out of bed in the morning had again become an issue. My focus was shot and it really felt like a part of my brain (particularly the bit that deals with remembering names) had gone AWOL.
It still feels like I am going around in circles on the same piece of code at work, which is unhappy making. I expected to have the system I'm working on to usable-prototype stage by the end of February of not sooner - now I just don't know when it will be. This is not giving my employer value-for-money.
It probably didn't help that my medication taking became irregular for a while - cause or effect or both. This week I have managed to get on top of that again, and the past couple of mornings I have been out of bed at a reasonable time (~7:30am) and putting in a proper number of hours at work.
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Aside: Although more of this week has been spent playing Super Puzzle Fighter II Turbo on the company arcade machine than I normally spend playing my usual break-game (Puzzle Bobble 2). SPF was this week's competition game - I don't normally partake in the competition because the shoot-em-up airplane/starfighter type games they usually pick aren't to my taste - or at least aren't brain-relaxing. But the Tetris-like nature of this one appealed to me. I doubled the highest score anyone else had achieved on my first game on Monday - and no-one including myself came close to that again during the week, but at the end of today I finally managed to top it.
~~~
Anyway tonight I feel my mood is OK, I'm just dead tired and more than a little alone. Feeling my recently-advanced age in more ways than one, and none of the fun ones :-/. Very few commitments this weekend, just a long list of things that need doing. Hoping I get to relax some.
It still feels like I am going around in circles on the same piece of code at work, which is unhappy making. I expected to have the system I'm working on to usable-prototype stage by the end of February of not sooner - now I just don't know when it will be. This is not giving my employer value-for-money.
It probably didn't help that my medication taking became irregular for a while - cause or effect or both. This week I have managed to get on top of that again, and the past couple of mornings I have been out of bed at a reasonable time (~7:30am) and putting in a proper number of hours at work.
~~~
Aside: Although more of this week has been spent playing Super Puzzle Fighter II Turbo on the company arcade machine than I normally spend playing my usual break-game (Puzzle Bobble 2). SPF was this week's competition game - I don't normally partake in the competition because the shoot-em-up airplane/starfighter type games they usually pick aren't to my taste - or at least aren't brain-relaxing. But the Tetris-like nature of this one appealed to me. I doubled the highest score anyone else had achieved on my first game on Monday - and no-one including myself came close to that again during the week, but at the end of today I finally managed to top it.
~~~
Anyway tonight I feel my mood is OK, I'm just dead tired and more than a little alone. Feeling my recently-advanced age in more ways than one, and none of the fun ones :-/. Very few commitments this weekend, just a long list of things that need doing. Hoping I get to relax some.